I used to think I had a pretty good idea of what the future was going to look like. I built my life around this imaginary future. The career trajectory that I was plotting, the idea of the future, of what I thought my life was going to be. The details were expected to change, but the events of this year so far are ones that I never planned for. The last few months have been ROUGH, worldwide, nationwide, locally. Even the countries and communities that are faring best in this global pandemic are having a rough year. Let’s just sit inside of that and dig into this discomfort, because we may be here a while. While it feels much safer to cling to the things that make me comfortable, I’ve always been more of a “just rip the band-aid off” kind of person; I’d much rather face things head on. Despite how painful it can be, even when my instinct is to retreat, I can’t. There are things greater than myself that need so much more attention right now than the meager offerings that I have to give as an artist. My aspirations for my photography business are on hold right now, I spend most days working on keeping my children from feeling isolated and bored, I plan, and budget, and do dishes, so many dishes. We strategically plan outings, armed with masks and sanitizer, we listen to scientists, we read, we read some more. Still, I can’t help but feel that documentation of the world right now is important. I have been shooting more than ever before. I have also been shooting film more than I have in the last five years. It feels like going home. I’m not sure how I ended up living in the wrong era, where everything I am good at used to be a good way to make a living, but is now only viewed as a hobby, but here I am. So, here are a few shots taken with a really lovely roll of Lomo-chrome purple, a film with an intentional color shift, mimicking the infra-red films that are so expensive and difficult to work with. I am simply in love with the results of this film in my forever BFF, my Pentax K1000. Here, is a quick glimpse at a few moments from the summer of 2020, pandemic, life in Maine.
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